Unfortunately, I can empathize with you, my friend.
For my depression controls me, too.
It is not a passing state of mind, nor a feeling.
It is something we survive through every day.
Sometimes, on certain days, it’s not as intense.
But it is always there.
A lot of people may never guess because I try to hide it.
I hide it by staying to myself.
And by pretending like I am concentrating and hard at work.
I am introverted…
…because I don’t want to pull other people down with me.
If my friends didn’t invite me to do things with them…
…I would constantly isolate.
A lot of the times I say “no” anyways because I am “busy”.
I know I am not alone, but a lot of the time it feels that way.
It ruins my intimate relationships.
It makes me run away from those who love me.
This depression sucks the happy out of me.
Even on sunny, beautiful days, all I can see is gray.
I sleep – a lot. Because depression numbs me.
I get frustrated with myself all the time because of how things are.
I don’t want it to be this way, but it just is.
SassaFrassTheFeisty
08/12/2016 at 20:32
Yes yes YES. Even though I’m in the Sunshine State, I’m anything but “sunny”.
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Surviving the Specter
08/13/2016 at 12:52
It’s sad that it sticks with us like…napalm. Except napalm eventually burns out. Maybe that was not so good an example. Have fun in FL, Sass’, you deserve it!!! X
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SassaFrassTheFeisty
08/13/2016 at 12:58
Yes you are so right. It is like napalm. It thinks a really good example. Florida is ok, very emotional weekend.
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Surviving the Specter
08/13/2016 at 13:00
Awwww, I’m saddened to hear that dear. You always have my number if I can listen if you EVER need to unload. You know that. Unconditionally. X
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Heather
08/11/2016 at 20:35
Gawd, this is me. It just feels like the life is being sucked out of me.
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Surviving the Specter
08/12/2016 at 08:42
It’s unfortunate we can relate, Heather. Thank you for stopping by and commenting. I hope the life-sucking is only temporary for you. I saw your son at the gym the other day. It was good seeing him. X
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