A Little Medicinal Miracle

06 Jun


So I’ve chosen a high deductible health care option this year and have been super stressed about being able to afford my meds – the rusty bars that keep Specter precariously caged and out of sight, locked somewhere in the basement of my soul.

You see the price on the one in the upper left hand corner? That’s for Abilify. Yeah buddy.

SIDENOTE: Abilify has been approved for generic production by the FDA and now costs $0.00. I guess I could have just said it was free.

I had to go without my Adderall (THQUIRELL!) for a couple months. And that was fun.

Like drinking decaf.

So here’s how my meds stack up-

Lexapro          $129.00

Trazodone      $17.99

Abilify              $899.00

Adderall          $102.99


$1148.98 (Excuse me while I go rob a small bank. Be back in 10.)

So back to the point…sorry. First day back on the Addy-rall.

I go to pay for my meds and the total is $0.00!!!! (Yeah, I guess I coulda just said they were free.) It looks like I paid my deductible. whootwhoot

Small miracle.

Big lesson. In humility. Doubting that He would provide for me.

Point taken, Lord. It’s just so hard sometimes. Thank you for Your grace.


11 responses to “A Little Medicinal Miracle

  1. houck52

    06/07/2015 at 08:00

    Yes the winner here is the Pharmaceutal industry…and none other than the food industry who have marketed and got you addicted to Doritos and Cokes as well as a host of other prepackaged foods. It is a fact that Sugar is more addicting than heroin…according to the latest research. It is also in scientific journals that carbs and sugars = poor brain health and mental stability. The food industry does alot of research to find the “most addicting” tastes…they want you coming back for more so they can rack in the $. So when all the diseases kick in from what you have been putting in your body for years…then the Pharmacy and Medical Industry start racking up the bucks….your choice pay now for healthy food or pay later for health care.

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  2. brentblonigan

    06/06/2015 at 15:10

    Mental health is big business for pharmaceutical companies. Why they are allowed to advertise to the public is beyond me. United States and New Zealand are the only countries that allow this. With the Affordable Care Act, it is a fact that the pharmaceutical companies are one of the biggest winners. There is nothing right about the facts that you have presented.

    At one time or another, I have used all of the medications for the same reasons. I was able to whine off all of that. They helped but there are no silver bullets. Have you looked into medical food or Deprin? Deprin, a medical food, was a game changer for me.

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    • Surviving the Specter

      06/06/2015 at 15:18

      I haven’t heard of Deprin, brent’, but will do some research on it. I’m also getting some thoughts from friends on my “diet”. I’m basically a big kid stuck in a 41 year old body that can’t keep my hand out of the Doritos bag.


  3. the-reluctant-parent

    06/06/2015 at 14:26

    I don’t know a whole lot about different medications so I’ll have to google all these.

    The costs of medications in this country is Ludacris and the pharmalogical companies, though they need money for research and development and should rightly profit from their work because they are a business, it is my own opinion that the general public gets screwed because of the unaffordability of medications that would otherwise help them. The pharmacies can charge huge amounts of cash for their product because the insurance companies will, in most instances, just pay the claim. That is admirable but what isn’t is companies charging other companies an outrageous price just because they can.

    The same is true with the screen reader market and the blind. A lot of blind people can’t get jobs because of social and attitudinal barriers in this country so when one such individual needs adaptive software to use the computer that they do need to perform the job, it’s a government agency that usually picks up the tab and since the government isn’t in the business of competitive purchasing, the company in question sets a price of around $1100 for their software, whereas if they had to deal with the natural market without this bloated intervention, their software would have to cost less because the market wouldn’t bare such a high cost.

    People always need help and I know that I’m one of them but the cost of said products for people whether it be medications or software should be readily available to the population without the inflated price attached to it just because corporations use the right to make a profit to justify their own need for excess and greed which benefits only a small percentage of people.

    See, even politically I’m a mess, understanding that businesses need to make money but decrying what I see as an exorbitant gap between those who have all the profits and those who are in need of the products and/or services provided by these corporations.

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    • Surviving the Specter

      06/06/2015 at 14:42

      I just read through all the informational bulletins that come with my meds (like you told your readers to do in a post a while back) and am filing them away in my binder that is going to be a portfolio for my daughter. I think at some point in her life she needs to know about daddy because it might answer questions she has about herself. If I would have not only known about those things with my dad, I may have developed differently. Who knows?!?! But I think it would have been better for me to have known some of the connections I’ve made in our relationship.

      The Lexapro is for depression and the Abilify is an enhancement to be taken with it. I take Trazadone to help me sleep at night. I have sleep apnea and struggle to keep my c-pap mask on all night so that kind of helps. Everyone knows about the Addy-rall.


  4. morgueticiaatoms

    06/06/2015 at 13:43

    Bet my insurance company breathed a sigh of relief today when I told the pharmacy I’m no longer on the Latarda $26- dollars- a -pill -to- make- me -worse. Even if it was their dime, I felt immensely guilty. I didn’t pay much more than a month’s supply of that stuff for my CAR.

    I ran out of Focalin last week for three days and it was LOOK THERE’S A BUNNY OOH SOMETHING SPARKLY…Ick,

    Glad it worked out for you. Might be something to this faith thing. Maybe if my Numbo thing ever wears off, I’ll look into it.

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    • Surviving the Specter

      06/06/2015 at 13:47

      Sorry you’re dealing with semi-the same thing, morgue’. And glad you’re off the Latarduh my friend. Excited to hear of how it makes you feel over the next few weeks – and I mean hoping it makes you feel much much better.

      Bring on the Numbo things! He accepts it all 😀

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    • Surviving the Specter

      06/07/2015 at 09:45

      Thinking of you this Sunday, my friend. Here’s something to kick crazy brain in the nuts!

      Liked by 1 person

      • morgueticiaatoms

        06/07/2015 at 09:48

        That sent the mental cobwebs flying right off scumbag brain and my eardrums. Love it.

        Liked by 1 person

        • Surviving the Specter

          06/07/2015 at 09:50

          YES!!!!!!!!!!!! Hang with it sistah! You got this. You’re a warrior fo’ sho’. This is true. Real. Talk. I hope that you find a little sliver of sunshine today 🙂

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