Once a Victim ~ Now a Survivor Award
I would like to thank Rose with Thorns, who nominated my blog for this award. This award is for those who have gone through mental illness of any kind, abuse, trauma, and especially PTSD. Here are the rules:
- Thank the blogger that nominated you
- Nominate 7 or more bloggers whom you feel deserve the award
- Post 5 questions for your nominees to answer (you may use the same as these below)
- Inform your nominees and post a comment in their blog to let them know they’ve been nominated
The questions for me were the following:
1. What is your favorite post that you wrote? My most powerful post, the one that started this blog, is titled, My Story. It gives the account of my suicide attempt. I wrote this post because I want others who struggle with the same feelings, to know that they are not alone.
2. How do you find motivation to write? My motivation to write comes from several sources:
♦ Quotes. I like to use quotes to spread my message. I use a few original templates that I’ve created so there is a feeling of consistency and familiarity to my readers, and so people can focus on the message. All of these can be found by accessing the “Quotes” category on my blog.
♦ Music videos. I love music. If a song pertains to the theme of my blog I will use it in a post. All of these can be found by accessing the “Video” category on my blog.
♦ Poetry. Sometimes I’ll have a verse pop into my head when I’m reading or working on a current post. I’ll immediately start a new post and either finish the poem in a few minutes or come back to it at a later time. Sometimes the flow comes naturally and sometimes it needs to work itself out over time. “So whAt” is one such example. I was thinking of someone who was having a rough day and kept dropping things, or tripping, and whose day was just falling apart. In their clamor, they more and more felt that they were going crazy and I wanted to show that there were reasons for why this was happening…it wasn’t just coincidence. Stress, anxiety, PTSD, etc., all cause these things to happen.
I’ve also written saga-like poetry that reads over time. The Specter series was one such four-part installment that dealt with the personification of my depression and the struggle I face between the forces of despair and hope.
I also started a series dedicated to my girlfriend’s PTSD, called “I’m Getting Her PTSD“. It’s a play on words and I write a verse every time I “get”, or understand something about her PTSD. I used a play on words that may have suggested that her PTSD was spreading to me but the reader gets a different view by the end of each verse.
♦ Other posts. Sometimes I get inspiration from reading other people’s posts. “I Thought of You” is one such example. I was reading a post in my reader someone had written about facing the realities of suicide. A quick line jumped into my head and in a few minutes it had matured into the two-verse poem I posted. When writing these particular poems, I like to write about the situation in the first verse, and then use the second verse to speak hope. That’s a common theme I use.
♦ My Faith. I post faith-based quotes, scripture, and journal excerpts under the “Faith for Hope” tab. This has been a large part of my healing process and has been the one thing that has allowed me to live through my depression through a state of grace.
3. If you could have any super power, what would it be? Being able to hold a conversation in public. I’m really an introverted person of few words. Conversations can be awkward for me.
4. Who inspired you growing up? I had a high school history teacher and drum instructor who inspired me while growing up. My history teacher used these words that intrigued me and made me want to learn. My drum instructor was a mentor and father-figure to me. They both taught me so much about life and striving to be better.
5. What makes you super excited? It makes me excited to know that at least one person has come away from my blog with hope. With feeling that they are not alone. With knowing that even though they may not feel like reaching out, there are people who will extend themselves because they’ve been where they are.
Here are the inspiring bloggers that I nominate:
And here are their questions:
- When did you start your blog and what inspired you?
- What types of blogs do you follow?
- How many revisions does it take before you push the publish button?
- What’s the best thing about you and what have you learned from blogging?
- Do you have other blogs?